Dandelions are little miracles...

Saturday, January 01, 2005

happiehappie new year to all of you guys out there!! i love you all so muchie! hahaha...ooh man i sound relaly mad. hmms...you noe i spent my new years eve at 12 midnite talking to leen and fuq online like getting really high high high! woohoo. rox +) so peig...does this mean i will spend 2005 talking to the 2 of them so much? haha! silly girl.
lemee tenk abt 2004 now. i tenk that this was the year in which i experiecned the most in my 18 years of life. like...this was kinda like a turning point for me? turningg point with point of no return.. yeps. its been a fruitful and wonderful and amazing year. like totally.
i still rmb how it felt in jan to be a retainee. gosh. the first day of sch. suxed to the core. sitting in the hall with my horn and looking at the ogls gg ard ushering the yr 1s in. wishing with my heart i could be one of them too. wishing so much. and just trying my v best not to cry. but i still in the end. the tears still came out. i dunno how i survived. but i did eventually eventho in a horrible fashion. just remember tears. and hiding. and longing. and how hard it was to be cheerful and just make frens. but i did it in the end. yea. you noe...i tenk the whole thing made me feel old in a way. and well...im just really glad i got a great class...like we are truly bonded not like my old class. and they are a bunch of wonderful ppl who cared alot for me and just accepted me into their world and i appreciate them so much even tho i was not alwaes ard for them. the bear club and ah yang and the monsters and dino catchers all...=)
i got to noe my 4 juniors xintian wanda yixin daryl and weixian. gosh. it was just a great section...with benson too. you noe..all the memories we have i will alwaes rmb. for awhile it seemed like heaven. my own lil family in njcsb. it was so sad when the 2 girls left. like..how i had tried so hard to make it fun for them and feel like they belong...but they still left. but yea. thanx for the fun. esp tt time you guys came for sleepover at my house and we baked cookys and had nonsensical pure fun. i love you all so much. benson grass dory malay wanda bimbo and yixin!
then...house reps. and my other year 2 frens. im happie we alwaes stayed in contact. i still feel like im one of you guys even tho im retained. you guys made it so much easier for me this first half of 2004. and yeps... it was good. you noe.. the birthdae party you guys had for me... touched me so much. i nv got ard to thanking you ppl. so yea. thanx alot alot alot alot!!!!!
i made the decision to come to nafa...and im not regretting it. got to make some good frens like ee wei jeremy weiping clarence....nuz..peifang jenny and laurence. and many other ppl. wat a great year! haha.
and now theres the tsunami. its sad. seeing all those ppl on news and tv....losing their loved ones and the world they once knew is now being torn to pieces.. and they noe that nothing will be the same anymore. makes you cherish wat you have even more. cherish the ppl ard you. cherish your own life. makes you see that nothing is forever..its actually very fragile....it can all be brutally torn away from you without warning. so live your eveyrday to its very fullest with no regrets at all. and live happily.

chilipadi on 3:07 PM