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Sunday, July 31, 2005
2 important people in nafa! my lovely dah and mr.clare.
its happening all over again! the same cycle. why why why. it sux. like totally. do you really do not feel anything? i tenk its my blardy fault. i dunno. i just know that, youve changed so much. and i miss what we used to have, from the very first day we started talking to each other. that special friendship that i thought i would always have.
and you. im troubled. by ur troubles. sometimes i feel that everything i do never seems to be enough. never seems to make things better. they get worse. argh. i just hope i dun lose another friend here too. lousy.
i was reading dahs blog when i saw this again. it made me tenk of you. and for the first time, i teared. over you. cos 5 days ago, i felt it. that maybe u had closed ur heart alr. u stupid person. stupid us.
Autumn Leaves/ Les Feuilles Mortes Oh I want you so to remember The happy days of our friendship In those times, life was more beautiful and the sun shone brighter than today. One picks up the piles of the autumn leaves you see I have not forgotten one picks up the piles of autumn leaves as one does memories and regrets and the North wind carries them away in the cold night of obilivion you see I have not forgotten the song you used to sing to me.
This is the song of us when you loved me and I loved you we lived together the two of uswhen you loved me and I loved you the footprints of the estranged lovers in the sand and the sea wipes off But life makes all who love one another part very slowly without a sound.
Since you went away the days grow long and soon I'll hear old winter's song but I'd miss you most of all my darling, when autumn leaves start to fall.
happie happie belated birthday to zhangyiwei! i know you dont celeb ur bdays so actually, i thought for very long before i decided to do the surprise and all. but since its your 18th bday and u decided that you would wanna do sth so.. yupp. im sorry my playing that day wasnt gd. was supp to be ur pres too.. sorry for the disappointment. a thousand apologies for the other traumatising thing that happened too.. i din mean it to turn out that way.
tmr is gonna be a scary day for you. :(
we'll be praying hard for you. lets hope our wishes come true. lets hope its heard. without hope. one is left with nothing. never ever lose hope. and faith.
and thank you. thank you for coming into my life. thank you for teaching me so much and thank you for being who you are. thank you for being a special person in my life. i just want you to be happy. if only i could. i want you to be able to lead a simple life with no complications. and be happy. and carefree. love ya lots, my dear buddy.
a million thanx to all my friends for all the pleasant surprises i got on my birthday :) hee. initially i thought that well, since this aint impt as an 18th bday i'll just come home and celeb with my family for once, and that'll be enuff. hoho... things turned out different. hmms the bears celebrated for me and jan when we met up for bear club outing.. whee! it was a really great day cos all 8 girls were there and well we enjoyed ourselves much. went to the deserted starbucks at california fitness. stupid me and jan got conned lotsa times. but yea.. thanx girls. for the tiramisu and the lovely present.. i love the puma shirt! above all im so glad to have you girls.. even tho i dun get to see u girls everyday anymore, we still can talk abt anything underthesun. and yupp.. thanx for all the support uall give to me, for all the sunshine and cheer :) everytime i see uall, its a great stress reliever! wahaha. my bandmate who always get bullied by erm...sishan and me: jan, my mighty mouse min, the evil secretary and treasurer who still wanna overthrow me as pres: cand and sishan, my dear bearbear xuan, yanling the bear trainer. u girls rock!
was thrown a surprise by peifang peifeng laurence papa and midorie mama. :) woohoo. gullible me again. but then, what else can you expect from me. boohoo. but yupp i was really surprised and thanx for the cheesecake and the wallet. im using it everyday! :) had a long lunch with jeremy. thanx for the treat haha... been so long since i tallked to you. k and its partly my fault.. heehh. above all, i enjoyed the cosy dinner with dah and clare at my house. i'll always cherish the times we spend together.. you two are important people in my life and im happy to have had so many beautiful memories with you in such a short period of time. thanx for the egg *wahaha* and the earrings. thanx for the laughter the trust and the support.
the biggest surprise came from who else but the house reps on sunday! its a long story so i'll save ur eyes the trouble. but hey.. to all you guys.. esp to huili peig and shaunz, its another bday i'll never forget. the other one is the one last year! yupp. so. im very very super ultra utterly immensely touched by u guys. huili: you win the oscar awards!!! woohoo :) it was really great to see ppl like gabby, huiling, linz and kat after ages, and to meet up with the rest again. ppl like hilda, alene, haogen and tarng, thanx for the necklace :) yupp.. as peig said, aint it great how we can dun meet up for so long and when we do, its just as if it was only yest we saw each other? thats how it was.. a very exciting cosy time with lotsa pizza, aust chocs, laughing madly, gossiping, telling stories and fighting as usual abt which house is the best. etc. quality time spent with a bunch of special people whom i love alot. a bunch of special people who made my days in nj complete. people whom i hope i'll always keep in touch with.
okay. heres some more updates. went down to watch orchidpark at the botanic gardens on last sunday. haha.. i had fun waving my gigantic lily leaf or watever its called to cheer the kids. wheee :) ive decided: im gonna be their greatest supporter! met dah's v. good fren, ziyun, or yunz. at last! and i saw my cute tpter!! woohoo!
the wasbe west winds concert was on tues. 12july. hmms. i sure had quite alot of fun these past few weeks. singing in the choir. getting to know more of my schmates in nafa. ppl like huien, dot, joy, lifeng, shihua, peixin, dot and yifang. especially the chinese word game we played during the long wait for the first rehearsal at the esplanade.. haha!! that was hilarious man. kinda miss sang nila. wahaha. the rhythms rock. and after the storm. cloudburst..with shihuas beautiful solo. woohoo. :) was memorable. and guess what every one!!! please be very very proud of me!! hahaha.. i helped clarence bring his heavy double bass back to school after dinner!! haha. cos he had two instru with him.. so we each shouldered one and walked from esp to cityhall and took traiin to bugis then walked to school. well as you can alr guess, we looked like two puny lil ants carrying two biiig shells. funny ehs. shld have taken a picture of that.
had a call from nicole late on thurs asking me to be the accompanist for mr. Riki Mcdonell. woohoo.. hes this powerful eupho player from newzealand here for wasbe. they couldnt find a pianist to play for his gig at suntec on sat. so ta-da. i was called. heh. scary. but a great experience!! his pieces are beautiful. his playing is so musical and he has a rich damn nice tone man. and yupp hes a v friendly helpful guy. was great working with him. thanx nicole! :)
orchid park wind orch's first concert at vch rocked :) to everyone who missed it.. too bad man. please make it for the next one. haha.. hmms lets see.. the concert was supp to start a 7pm but they had some complications so our dear mr.clare tan rang the 3rd bell at like..past 15 minutes... in the end the concert ended at ard 10pm i tenk. haha.. madness! enjoyed thoroughly the merry widow, the breathtaking barnes' 4th symphony, evergreen 70's :) , the choir's seasons of love and when u believe. even more, the stomp section made up of 7 guys and a girl with bamboo stix and what nots was incredible. excitingexciting! yumm.
watching clare conduct his band.. seeing the ring glinting on his finger. conducting with so much energy passion and spirit. sitting at the piano and perf with his band. his facial expressions. sitting at the circle seats with dah and feeling so damn proud of our dear friend. so proud of him that we were gonna cry alr. all those rehearsals with his kids. the funnyfriendly timpani player. the prettie concert mistress. the friendly lil girls. the zai mallet player who always looks so fierce but i discovered he's quite nice. the funnycute trumpeters. i'll miss them all quite abit. the two harp players! getting lost on my way to the school even. wahaha.
i had a great time working with the kids from orchidpark. they're full of dedication. enthusiasm. life. and spirit. something i tenk all bands should have more of. the musicality of their playing is able to touch the listener so much. sometimes when i hear them play i really feel like tearing. and even more so, im happie to have been there to watch clarence conducting his band. all those nites he stayed up, all the hard work and effort he put into this band. all those mornings the whole band came down for rehearsals. it paid off. im already looking forward to working with them again next year! thank you for the memorable experience. :)
wow. so much has been happening this past week or so. ive been rushing all over the place from cck to places like khatib bbtok nj siglap vch and esp. and guess what.poor me will have spent more than 10 days in close succession at vch at nite. how terribly exciting huh! so bascially im zonked out from all these rushing ard to rehearsals and so on. its gonna end soon. yest was the nj etude 30 and tmr will be the orchidpark concert.. and on 12th, the wasbe. and then i tenk i'll miss all these. haha. nj etude.. hmm. i enjoyed all the alumni practices we had.. coming back tog.. it was just veh nice to you know.. just sit tog in the band room and make music again? it seems eons ago that i played in a band. and last mon's prac rocked man! it was totally sHIok playing armenian dances esp.. woohoo. itenk rasull's a gd conductor! watching the juniors play yest was incredible too. it felt like.. coming home in a way. thats the way we all will feel i guess. no matter how much im starting to run from band concerts, i'll always want to watch njc. all the familiar faces, the school song, the audience..so family. daryl's solo in cry of the celts rocked. v touching! the horns rocked :) edo's conducting was super powerful man. he and thomas can be my new idols..
you know sth.. i made this resolution quite some time ago.. that i wont bother any of the 2 of them ago. maybe its cos of the stuff that happened before that.. maybe its cos none of them ever did anything much. and cos all of it made us too tired. tired of trying. ah well.. maybe its fated to be... that we werent meant to be. i also made a similar resolution abt another person in my life.. ah well. congrats to me.. it kinda worked for the two.. and i mean both ways! sometimes i tenk abt how things would be different if well.. either party did sth more. if i had wanted it more that i actually took more action. but then again maybe this is best for us. .. u know how sometimes we wish and wish so much for a particular thing.. so much that it costs you heartache, tears, time, and waiting? and all that wishing was for nothing.. and there was nothing you could do due to the situation? so you closed your heart. but what if one day a chance popped up. in a weird way.. its been sth you waited for more than just mths. suddenly..you dunno if you are supp to feel happy or.. what.
makes me wonder. if we do really want something that badly.. why do we still hesitate? is it cos we arent sure of it.. and we wonder subconsciously if other choices would be better..and if thats what we do.. then is that wrong? or is it a sign that.. maybe one does not want that thing that badly after all? or do we hesitate.. cos we are scared? scared of giving everything of yourself. scared of what might happen, both the good and bad. or is it cos it aint right?