flowering plant in the Northern Hemisphere
with a globe of fine filaments
children (and the wind) love to blow away...
Click on the butterflies around the dandelions to get around.
Fire your imagination, Dream in colour
a boring old hag who loves to scream her head off, mutter in gibberish, and talk to random people on the streets.
Beautiful music. Gorgeous food. the Sun.Sea.Sand. Butterflies. Dance. Movies.
Spontaneity. Laughter. Love. Courage.
The Weird, Beautiful, and Unique.
The stuff dreams are made of
the Mini Austin!
the entire collection at HMV
my spanish chef (: im gonna marry him!
more of Desigual and Koi Nobori!
the yakpak hobo bag!
A Lifetime of Musicmaking with Inspiring People
and to share this with the world
ive been flooded with concerned questions the past few days. its been scary, overwhelming and for a few moments i felt lost again. floundering. theres nobody who can make the choice for me, only myself. and how do i know im right? im only me. i don wanna regret this. and i hope i can trust my gut instinct as i have all along. but i do know, i will fight with spirit. and i will do a damn good job to make sure the dream comes true. ah. but the uncertainty. it overwhelms totally. i know, i cant rest well till its settled.
ideabnk darling, thanks for everything you said tonight. they meant alot. and im grateful youre there for me. so yes i will go for the dream alright (: thanks, girlfren. for being there for me always. thru the horrible relevation i had tonight, and the questions. love ya lots girl. HUGS.
it was a kaleidoscopic beautiful mess, at the very least. my selfhypnotization will work yet again. the nagging doubts found their answer. and somehow im glad i had the courage. but sigh. the answers.
ive cooped myself up in my room for the past two days, with the noble aim of learning three crazy accomp by today. monday actually. if not, im deadmeat. desmond is deadmeat. so the very fact that im typing away here indicates sth doesnt it? (: i tenk/hope/pray i pulled it off! well. wait and see how it goes in like approx 12 hours time! so it was very mind-torturing. lots of singing to myself. but i love the works. so u see...its all v worthwhile. (: in btw i managed to finish off three books. hur hur. and eat a whole lot of junk. and watch two dvds. one hour each!
the bananababe managed to make me go high in my braindead state on friday. which was full of madness. including her classic moment of all times. breaking the jacky cheung face cut-out which was attached to the body!!! at some sistic outlet which i shall not mention in order to protect her privacy, lest she gets called up!! it was hilarious to see it come off with one not so gentle tug and even more to see it glaring up at me from her bag later in hte train....when we were listening to one of his songs. HORROR! she was all ready to be his no. 1 fan or sth man. (: kfc rocked. so did the thousands of specs lying on the counter. (:
a thousand and one things i wanna do. and all at once.
and theres the nagging doubt thats speaking to me like a damned inner voice. asking me if ive made the right choice. only this time its only yes. i cant go back anymore. can everyone pls tell me its all for the best pls.
i wanna know whats going on in ur mind. and i wanna know if my fluffy daydreams are gonna turn into reality. i wanna say so many things. but once again, resident noisemaker turns 180deg into ms scaredy cat. but most of all, i want this magic uve so naturally cast to keep on flowing. dont stop, will you? for me. im selfish. and for us.
alrt. graduation recital is over (: (: and that makes wong yun qi one happy girl. yea man. im happy. blissful. hyped up. hungry (again). and feeling contented. at peace. its thanks to the people who came down, so thankyou mummy dearest...i din know you were being nervous and scared there..hehe. ure amusing. mr.vogue for being there always, for accompanying me all 6 times i had exams. the muffins and flowers everytime. (: ur msgs of encouragement or just to entertain my nonsense too. i really appreciate it a whole lot. and thankyou, pignix my bestest manager. for ur mad rush today from one end of the island to the other 2x, ur 30bucks worth of cab fare. im touched! it was a great to see u backstage when i finished playing (: if not i would have exploded man. and of course, mirrormirrordarling! i finally saw u aft u got back from san diego! im proud of u babe. and my mirror in law! haha. and thankyou kevin for recording for me! and tekxin and marcus for coming down specially (: six years of friendship. hoho. and of course, mr.older-by-one-year, the big one. im touched that u came so freaking early..even before i reached. it was a good day today yea. and im glad u liked the present. (:
so there....three years of studying flew by in a twinkling of the both eyes. so fast. so many memories. i'll miss everything. ive learnt so much, academically, musically, experience-wise, friendship, abt people, abt life. and ive met many people that im glad to have met. teachers that ive have the honour to study with. so yeap. it was a great experience. both the good and bad, im glad to have had. it was a sudden decision, but ive never regretted. now. its on to a new start. the break will be good to reflect and absorb on everything learnt. and im praying hard for the scholarship. and etc etc. and im glad to be out of this too in a way. out of the stress and burden. the screwups. and so manymore stuff i wont mention. those im happy to say bye too hehehehe.
went for the chick corea and gary burton concert on thursday. and it was well worth every single dollar and cents of my 62bucks. especially after they did the seat exchange for us...a peek over the guy in front of us revealed a whooping 150buck seat for us! surprsie surprise. (: and so. i loved the amazing chemistry between the two awesome musicians. so understated and subtle but so powerful. i loved the improvisations the magical harmonies the dialogue the sparks and the stage presence. in particular the hypnotizing song. so simple and yet so effective. the tango! the brazil song. and the opening piece. they're funny people too. and i left the concert totally inspired. armed with the totallycool huge manuscripts ready for the bigone's transcriptions. haha.
we had a cockedup day yest. the messiest dinner ever which was hilarious. a result of mayo chili fries melting icecream flying arms and two extremely starving people. all over the place. music and lyrics is also damn funny. and the lines in it...they struck so many chords. so true. so well spoken. man. so much that its spooky. and somehow, i felt like turning. and asking. and saying
im all in a mess. dejavu. a tangled web i somehow am happy to be in. lies? they're the ultimate when u create them for yourself.
if i saw a shooting star now. theres only one thing i would wish for. and every cell in me theyre praying, this time round, that im lucky. lucky just like how a bad pronounciation of my name would sound. u dunno, how much i want this.
theres a rollercoaster of emotions going on in side of me. this past weeek especially. nagging frustrations. heart breaking disappointments. exhilarating pure uninhibited joy. blissful peace. piling up stress. schizo moments of feeling all alone and yet being supported at the same time.
well, im glad i can feel all these. goes to show im very much alive, yes? makes me richer in experience. stronger in person. and its humbling.
ive looked deep into myself. and i know somehow i will get thru this. in one piece or many pieces.
but i just wanna say this. sometimes, the hardest thing on earth is to be really coldhearted. to be able to walk away. and not do ur best to help. and as sad as it is to say this, i wished yesterday, with all my might, that i could do just that.
and not to be obligated to anybody. perhaps just for one hour in my life.
so we went for a crazy day of GeekFest yesterday! hoho. and my, i had so much fun. imagine. (: bumped into angela and her sis there. they're working there for the four days so it was good catching up. and see they were just as surprised as mysefl to see me there. laughed myself crazy over our self-appointed geek army with their arguments over spec.s, self-directed dejavu conversation, the exciting discovery of *gasp* a whole line-up of the USB 'lazy people rule' series. know what, they have everything ranging from usb lights and fans, sharpeners! rollable keypad which is damn funky, and the bigtime winner, the heater plus cooler. omg. u wont needa move a single inch once uve set up ur v complicated usb system. and bigone got a way cool deal with his two for one brotherinks. man. lastly, theres my very very cool and happening FE210! totally idiot-proof. tried and tested. with an exciting 7.1 megapix. all for a price of 299bucks. (: (: (: so u see, it was a productive day after having my brains fried and tortured in the morning by counterpoint yucks. haha.
i finally made my decision regarding future studies. makes me one enlightened, happier girl more at peace with myself. at least for now, i don need to walk around singapore constantly being bugged with the nagging thought of what to do. i dunno if this is a good or perfect or smart decision. but i do know this is what ive been wanting to do. and i finally have the courage within me to say yes to what the heart wants. and this time round i know, im sticking to it no matter what. toes and fingers are all triple crossed. and thankyou, bigone. thanks for the constant hypnotising. somehow u gave me the courage i was lacking in one lethal injection, and now, i can do it.
everyone's busy busy busy of late. hang in there alright. (: we can do this.
sometimes the things people say are just plain weird. this has never crossed my mind ever. hearing that from u was simply strange. does that even matter? it got me all worked up. a little hurt. very bothered. plain stunned. and rendered speechless.
the wonders of life eh.
these days. im veering on the edge of extreme personalities. one moment i do everything on the act of spontaneity. anything goes. and the nike motto just do it speaks for me. the next moment, im calculating, recalculating, weighing the options and driving myself mad. for now, i ll just go with the flow. whatever is gonna happen pls happen with fireworks bigbangs champagne and sparklers please. my patience is reaching its end.
i have a great craving to go backpacking. hiking. rock climbing!!!. and i wanna learn scuba diving. just be in the outdoors again. its been too long. i miss it.
graduation soon. everyones going their ways. three years of memories bad and good, noisy and crazy. time to plan for our future. and its one big world out there. way big.
so you appeared once more and disappeared without a word. i'm still the same. all on the outside and inside. thats what i tell myself. but a sneaking suspicion whispers to me im not. somethings changed. that lil fist sized organ in me. see, whether its in bright daylight or after11. i still cannot see you.
and now. my mind and heart do not tenk the same way not anymore. uve put them on opposing sides of a war that goes on everyday.