flowering plant in the Northern Hemisphere
with a globe of fine filaments
children (and the wind) love to blow away...
Click on the butterflies around the dandelions to get around.
Fire your imagination, Dream in colour
a boring old hag who loves to scream her head off, mutter in gibberish, and talk to random people on the streets.
Beautiful music. Gorgeous food. the Sun.Sea.Sand. Butterflies. Dance. Movies.
Spontaneity. Laughter. Love. Courage.
The Weird, Beautiful, and Unique.
The stuff dreams are made of
the Mini Austin!
the entire collection at HMV
my spanish chef (: im gonna marry him!
more of Desigual and Koi Nobori!
the yakpak hobo bag!
A Lifetime of Musicmaking with Inspiring People
and to share this with the world
Thursday, August 31, 2006
doomsday is over. all thats left is this sad regret that i know myself how much better i could have done. in desordre. and in vivavoce. have really learnt my mistake. and im tahnkful i have a teacher who has nv raised her voice at me, never scolded me. but u know, somehow that all jsut makes it worse.
this entry today at this weird time is to thank all the special ppl who made doomsday a really special day for me. totally unexpected cos well, i thought u know, its just an exam. but woah.
so heres to alan. thankyou for ur msgs. for the choc muffin. and the sunflower. (: and for this line: "mistakes make you only human, perfection only makes a musician inhuman." and to penguin. thankyou for the sunflower too and the drive home! totally cool. to daniel. thankyou for the msg. for helping me lug my impossibly heavy bag all the way from raffles place to vch. hoho. and to the darling semiquavers. thankyou for the -hey-do-you-tenk-we-shld-show-e-police-this- surprise. gosh! (: i love the oreocheesecake n toy pencil. the sunshrooomz (fwahh). the hot-air balloon picnic (aud!). thankyou for the msgs.
yea. i was utterly touched. (: u guys saved me from hving to feel like a piece of total crap tht day.
and to twinny dearest. hang in there girl, all the way! go go go! the twinny power's over to you now, n all the power from the winterwear n self-psycho. you can do it alrights! hugsss.
counting down. its a mere one day left to doomsday.
o well. here's a random list of what makes life happening. for no reason, i just feel like listing them out.
i. playing exciting music like ligeti (shooting ppl down n whatnots) like kab. and like that totally exxxxciting crazy broughton sonata accomp part. aft u finish u just feel so satisfied. ii. mindboggling food can make one go high. enuff said. iii. gorgeous shoes. tho they can kill u. iv. beautiful bags. makes me smile like a lunatic. v. sleep. sth thats so hard to get.
alrights. i feel good now. and now, im off to get more of no v.
i need to be next to you. need to share every breath with you. i need to know i can see your smile each morning, look into your eyes every night. some lines from this nice song by michelle branch. courtesy of my sis. sweet yea. (: it just sticks in my mind. dammit.
im on a escape from all the truckloads of work i need to do. needtodo.needtodo.needtodo. yea. need to do. and yet. they aint done. its the time of the year whereby the whole entire sch slowly gets crazier (as if we werent crazy already before this) and more stressed. soon. tempers are gonna flare. mad stuff done. and more pandas coming to sch. oh well. we've been thru this before. we can get thru this. just hang in dere everyone. its just like one mth plus more eh.
ahh but still. all this bothersome knowledge of work undone just refuses to go away. its like...ignorance is bliss? so it just nags at u. it refuses to let u sleep well. let u eat properly n prac properly cos like as if u have some compulsive disorder, u just keep on TENKING abt it. yea..just tenking abt it.
more time pls. i need 72 hours a day pls.
practicing my kabalevsky again, is like getting reacquainted with an old friend u havent met in years. that slow, tentative feeling initially which quickly blooms into ecstatic drug addiction. u just cant get off it. n the deeper u fall in, the more treasures u find. same goes to mr.ravel. deardear friends (:
sth my vunderful teacher told me sometime ago. u know sth, when those really great pianists perform, u don hear notes. u hear music spilling out, u hear colours, u hear their emotions. and that dominates their performance. n its until u tenk abt it, that u realize that in order to achieve all these, they had a solid foundation n brilliant technique.
thats what makes them shine. this ability to treat their brilliant technique as mere means to bring out the music. and never letting the brilliance of their technique overpower the music.
hey pretty lady. stay crazy, happy and well, the wonderful friend ive known for close to 9 years! thanks for being dere for me all these while. and for ur trust in me. ive enjoyed all the adventures we've had doing silly stuff n going high. n its good having those talks with u.
have a great year ahead of u girl!!...much love. huggggs. (:
was talking to huili n gab. den we were reminiscing abt hse reps. n for one moment. i wished we had a tape of all the stuff we've done tog. of us. of all the madness the laughter the teasing the tearsthe late nites the cheering the songs the dances the houseroom the many celebrations the excitinggate climbing. just to look at. to relive those magical moments. i miss. alot.
the houseroom we go to slack. mornings. btw class. aft sch. where we go to escape to sleep. ourhideout. songs blasting from the com. that legacy thing. the lockers. the notes. the food. the flags.the insane rollingchairs n us rollingout being pulled by e guys.
the camps. the birthdays. ahlam n yuensean's terrorism of us all.
ndc floats. cny deco. teachers day celeb. sports day. cheerleading. (: i miss all 36 of them so much.
im so damn freaking hungry i cant tenk properly at the moment. so forgive if this post sounds mad. cos oh man....i so wanna eat now. but no. i wont. (teeth were brushed early. in order to control this bottomless pit here late at nite) but its driving me NUTs.
nafa's sports day! now who would have thought an arts school would have sports day even? and a super happening one at that. it was exciting man. we should have like...2 sports day a year! (: its after all that excitement of telematches, dressing up schmates as mummies n pretty women, cheering team mates on, and going silly tog with the rest of your friends that you feel closer to everyone else. it bonds pple tog. n im glad this year we din have to leave early for class again. got pulled into the sea 2x man. thanks to dah101 n angela. damn sneaky lahh. and abdullah n giant later on. ayyye. look what dahs and twinnys and soloists do to you! wahaha TSKK. and not to forget the memorable illegal refugee ride we took in penguins van. imagine! 1 ton worth of ppl squeezed inside a lil van. limbs everywhere, no longer urs. the food we had at indulgz, penguin's fren's place was simply....heavenly. u can really get on a high just eating dere. drinking h20 out of wine bottles. having mindboggling tiramisu. omg. i love it! (:
caught the beat my heart skipped too. i like. (: makes u tenk. tho the beginning was abit confusing. but it was nice.
sometimes. determination is all you need. u have to want something real bad. that u'll go all the way for it. uve got to believe u can. somehow.
and sometimes u need a wake up call to ur life. it can come in so many different packages. big or small. chance or planned. it forces u to take a step back and look at urself. and tenk abt how you're living ur life. then the rest depends on you urself.
sometimes. i tenk getting retained was the wakeup call to mine. it opened my stubborn eyes to the truth that had all along been lying in front of me. but which i had stupidly somehow always chosen to ignore. that music was what i wanted to do. was what i should have done.
and music, it brought a whole new meaning and dimension to life. to living.
alrights i decided i would post some kl pics here the rest are too funny to post up so ask us if u really wanna see it. (: but this one here, its classic man. i love it. e two of them are just super funny...
its taken me almost 2 yrs. but ive gotten dere. so, bye: from the heart. dere'll be no tears this time. cos ive got the memories with me for always.there, at the bottom of the memorybox, unmoved. and i tenk i can now be truly unbothered by all this. and i tenk, that im okay with it now. and i tenk. everythings gonna be just fine. and from this wk on, i'll right it all. this mistake that began the moment i allowed myself to know u. which has dragged too long. and from this wk on, i can truly finally believe in this w/o feeling like im still bluffing myself. and that feels just good. i only wanna take them out years later and dere'll only be smiles then. to look thru sepia-toned photos. of days that belong to a dream, once upon a time.
had a hyperventilatingly-exciting day out with ideabank on sat. at last!!! which consisted of us marching off to harbourfront for DA CABLECAR RIDE! (: its the coolest thing on earth oke i tell you guys, to me at least. its my craving. tht was when we came up with yet another of our brilliant iDeas! regarding our rainydayrestaurants which u will see being set up along with alot of other companies and proj n stuffs when we announce our retirement. thats when we shal set up iDeab*nk company pte ltd. (: look out for htat day alrights! its gonna be fireworkzzz-style-exciting. it was a really nice therapeutic talk we had at our fav beach 'when the whole world is going home but we're going there' hohos. claiming ownership over many huge pet glowing turtles. eating yumm NY pizza. having cool burials with tombstones. and disturbing the mermaidporn couples. haha. thanks for everything my dearest friend. its been too long since we last talked abt everything. n did stuffs like this tog. and just spenidng qlty time tog. ive missed it. (: don forget abt dugongs n luges and skyrides oke!
info of the day: dugongs have acute hearing to make up for their poor eyesight. did ya noe that? now see, thats sth u get to learn from sitting cablecars.
life brings many different people to us at different times. whether i get to sharemany or lil memorieswith each of you, i just wannasay that each memory is just as precious to me. andthat i'll always keep them with me. and its been a beautiful experience knowing all u different people in my life. both the old and new friends. thankyou for making my life so brilliantly colourful, for painting it a different colour that is unique to you, just like how you are. special in ur own ways.