flowering plant in the Northern Hemisphere
with a globe of fine filaments
children (and the wind) love to blow away...
Click on the butterflies around the dandelions to get around.
Fire your imagination, Dream in colour
a boring old hag who loves to scream her head off, mutter in gibberish, and talk to random people on the streets.
Beautiful music. Gorgeous food. the Sun.Sea.Sand. Butterflies. Dance. Movies.
Spontaneity. Laughter. Love. Courage.
The Weird, Beautiful, and Unique.
The stuff dreams are made of
the Mini Austin!
the entire collection at HMV
my spanish chef (: im gonna marry him!
more of Desigual and Koi Nobori!
the yakpak hobo bag!
A Lifetime of Musicmaking with Inspiring People
and to share this with the world
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
everyone, please do go support Gone Shopping.the movie. (: its a great local film. there's so much sadness, tinged with hilarious moments especially the dialogue btw the lil indian girl (btw, she can reallly act!) and the security guards. and somehow, the movie touched me greatly. there were moments one can relate to. like the ending line. "i know that i'll miss this place and the people when im gone. but will i be missed, too?" the way scenes were shot, and linked was nice. and the most exciting part? was watching the list of credits crawling up and seeing the name felix phang up there on the big screen. three titles too! hohoho that was a cool moment. as he says, "it feels weird. like as if thats my twin who did it, not me" hahaha....whatever it is, im proud of his work in it, in his first movie production. to be able to witness the end result of all those long hours of work plus sucky tech troubles that he had to go thru, n everyth he got to see n learn. like....wayyytogo! (:
heres more random thoughts today, or rather yest. life's all abt finding the perfect balance. the perfect mix. aint it so? in our playing, in trying so hard to find someone to share your life with, in cooking, in work, in ur daily lives. arent we such a troublesome lot..wanting to be able to alone and yet not lonely. and then when we want company, its gotta be that perfect type too. and then again, we tell each other to be who we are, just be ourselves. but ive realized thats not so easy too. no matter how much you try, we always fall into the trap of trying to be sth we arent. subconsciously. the search for perfection. its such a haunting presence. sometimes im scared we're trapped in a mundane cycle. and there are days when i cannot find it in me to be me when im around you. i just wanna retreat into a shell and keep quiet. how ironic. when uve always said that im real high everytime. but yet i just find myself having mindblocks and tongueblocks and just a total schultz. i look around me and i see girls who are prettier, smarter, wittier, taller, carrying themselves with so much poise, girls who ooze charm, laughter n unique personality. and i look at myself, this walking shortie with a wooden head and clumsy limbs. then i glance at you. and, i wonder to myself. why? why why why why why? and then the line from kirsty mcColl comes to my mind. "Im just the token girl" yes. me. hello and welcome to my world.
my brain was pretty dead to the world today. but its nice to be able to walk thru the streets in comfortable silence, sit side by side without really saying much, not doing much. in my comatose state of being. singing my random wordless songs. having no need to talk much. and just watch the flurries of people go by, the tourists that seemed to sprout from nowhere.
we met a pretty nice chilean couple today over lunch. doctors they are. i love meetin random people.
my head's all spinning now. i need to sleep, and to practice, to do something concrete on my plans. jap soon, thats quite cool. my list is starting to grow! and its kinda weird actually, knowing that the schoolmates had choir at 11am today and start lessons tmr but not being part of all that anymore. hooola
and ive got an awful huge bruise down my left leg. hurts like mad. and i got way cool foot and hand reflexology that day. plus massagetherapy rocks. oh yes and i finally met up with the house reps on sunday. my dearies are back from hk!! lovelywonderful. (: and lydia and zhao finally appeared after how long man. ive missed them greatly!
the nice couple today at the bistro made my day a really truly great one with the compliments paid plus the tips. (: and it was a superb feeling. i'll always always rmb today, for always. (: working at the bistro, tho its super part time, has been interesting, fun, rewarding n ive learnt so much. everytime presents a challenge, and im trying so hard to be less sotong and be faster. its a job thats so diff from what ive done all my life. sth ive never attempted before. so heres whats impt. 1. as christin always tells me, treat customers as your friends, and they'll treat you as theirs too. and if you just present yourself as service staff to them, thats how they'll ever only see you as. 2. key in orders first. all the time! 3. be as fast as you can! and yet stay calm. and dont be blur. aiya. thats super challenging to me. all of you know, how slow i can be. and im sotong queen man.... 4. don be one of those bugs that leave their crap everywhere behind them!
haha. and so thats the four most impt stuff for now. so yes. i love working there. and ive got great colleagues plus boss plus chefs. not to mention they coooook yummmylicious food. (:
i thought alot this week abt everything. and i talked alot abt everything too. and at the end of all this mental exercise, i still stick true to my decisions. ive never made such strongminded decisions too before, so that feeling of being so sure about these..well i know i wont live to regret. and i hope i dont. the heart's leading the way this time, together with some of the head. i hope that i dont waste the year away. that the paranoia attacks that come and go, they re just false alarms. if not i know, the pride i have inside would all abandon me.
and im happy too. for that safe feeling i get. how the arm shoots out when i stumble. its like an auto reflex. how those words and actions let known that im thought of. and how i get to feel like miniroyalty sometimes. (:
this is how i spent my twenty first year of existence, as alan loves to say to me. i spent the day and the day after on gorgeous food. allow me to tempt you all with these pictures. theyre enough to do the talking (: i went super high at merchant court. all that amazing salmon oysters mussels. plus bread and butter pudding! and wonderful fried porridge! not to mention absolutely high-inducing choc fondue. plus the most traumatizing bowl of 2 and 1/2 tangyuans. heh. i never laughed so much over such food. and i love the chilled peach and white wine soup and my favourite portobello burger plus cheese fondue plus earl grey panna cotta and vanilla vodka thick shake from indulgz. as twinny puts it, the two of us had three liquor-ed dishes at one go. enough to go mad! and yes, i had two fondues in two days.
and heres specially to the wonderful people who celebrated with me. the twinny. my special mirrorimage, psychic girl, go wild partner and shopping buddy. i love you lots! for all your great advice, talks, chilling out, laughter, company. thankyou for the amazing seriously limited edition chupachups perfume! its even manufactured in three countries, just for one box. (: the pignix, phoenix and penguin. my three bestest guys in school. thanks for everything we've been thru. countless movies concerts performances bitching arguments meals parties crazyvanrides photowhoring suaning studyingsessions phonecalls and whatnots. and nix, thanks for sacrificing by going to num to get vouchers for me hehe...very touched! peng, thanks for the elvispop surprise!!! and phoe....omg. u got me my fav all time doubleheaded lilies. (: and the og..esp huimin and yanchuan. (: thanks for having dinner with me on the badluckfriday hehe. tho u guys had lastminute rushing to do. poor things...but well, i was one happy girl! awesomely touched. three special phone calls made saturday a way cool day. bananababe, captain and all those guys there in hk. and ideabank darling! it was great to hear your voices tho ure not in sg. (: plus bananababe's grand surprise man. all thanks to her parents for delivering the card. she herself got a shock too! and of course thebigone. i had the bestest dinner that day. thanks for bringing me to such a nice place. and the kuku ideas u came up with to make it a special day for me. i got a tummyache from laughing too much. the fighting the calls the pianojamming the accompaniment and everything else and yes, that conversation we had. made me wanna smile and cry all at the same time.
and last but not least. the family. for our quarrels fights tears screams. the laughter familiarity sweetness meals tv sessions playacting and madness. we've seen each other in our best and worst times. the only ones to do so. and for that i love you. muchhh.
so there. im just very happy to have met all of you along the way in my life. all of you. and i tenk im very lucky to have done so. i couldnt imagine life without anyone of you, so yes, big hugs. to you you you and you. (: thankyou for making this little life of mine, a really great one.
im officially announcing to everyone in this huge wide world who bothers reading here, that im super-extremely officially banning my one and only self from further shopping, till further notice which wont be in the near future. i'll be a spendthrift from now on (actually after next week), including my food expenses (omg, this area requires the most discipline. which i have absolutely no idea where im gonna get from). i shall only window gaze and indulge in oooohing and aaaahing to my hearts content. but i shall not reach for my wallet at all!!! and please refrain from sending me any cool and pretty and freaking tempting online shopping websites cos the keyword for my 21st year will be. DISCPLINE. mahahahs. all of you are prolly rolling your eyes till they spin and rolling your selves onthe floor in laughter. but hey, im gonna try my best. as sad as i am to ban myself too. hahahahahhaa. but i can be your shopping managers! (: just ask huimin and thebigone. im a great shoppingmanager cum calculator aint i???? meanwhile, the twinny doesnt need one lah. haha. shes selfsufficient and even more talented in this field than i am.
p.s. im so loving german classes. i love how loud and silly the class people can get. i love running down the road my father supposedly owns hur hur...to buy food during break. and my wunderbar friends made there esp mei yan and my nemesis, tze rei, the kukuhead and class clown man. p.s.s. imagine how exciting it would be to go for a foreign lang class every day of the week! monday jap. tues spanish. wed french! thurs italian. fri russian. sat german! and sunday revise everything. i'll go mad i tenk.
i finally met candace!!! hehe seeing her somehow made me feel really talkative. i know its again, hard to believe. but few people these days make me feel that way, its like the floodgates open and whoosh we just talk talk talk. and that was great. went to the art museum and was awed by the chalcography exhibition from the louvre museum. gosh man. i m so impressed by the skill and detail contained in those plates. theres absolutely no outlines, just pure lines, crafted in such fine detail that shadows and falling of light and all are captured. and gosh the printing methods were way cool. i want one tooo!!! anw girl, im just happy to see you and im glad we're finally watching buts tog soon, my concert buddy is back!
everyones flying everywhere. ideabnk is in usa and going taiwan which i cant go. bananababe n peig and shaunz are in hk!!! thats like the rest of my solaris housereps man. freaking sadness. :( oh and terence is flying to aussieland tmr. and xinhe just flew there, i hope he's all settled now. and and...bigone has r******** in two weeks. ahhhhh!!!
today was my big screwed up day. spent 45min trying to get the blardy keyboard working at musart. damn sad....it was spoilt! but oh well it was great seeing tim and alibaba and xiaowan and shawn and all..but can u believe it. i spent 2 hours doing nth there!!! then i spent half n hour sitting at the staircase reading a bk waiting for a soloist to reach for reh. and i missed the bigone performing, just by a few min or sth.
i din know whether to laugh at myself or cry. haha....so i ended up watching hilarious hk shows on tv. my fave absolute love.
and your phone call made the day better. (: as they always do. especially the weirdest hour ones. i love those. like at 830am or 1am or 3am. hur hur. theyre the best. cos then i get to go to sleep happily. or wakeup a happy girl to a nice voice and great entertainment. the best part is they inspire me to wake up! thats good man...no more procrastination. yes, wong yun qi is one happy person.
cumarran's back!!! and so is candace!! haha. babe im so sorry i thwarted your plans to surprise me. your timing is damn bad la hehe. of all times you get people to ask me out when im not in sg, and twice. omigosh. haha.
it was a great great happpppy day cos i got to meet two of my favourite-st people today TOGETHER! how long has it been since that has happened huh! everytime cooky monster flies back to sg, huili and i are both not free on the same days. man. today was gooood. the indian slave, the filipino maria, and the shortie. haha. we were on a perpetual high. silly huili kept insisting her 'charm' looked like the top jasmine from Disney's Aladdin wears. so be it! so we kept singing the damn song from that movie. plus embarassed and disturbed cuma like mad. hello dude, we have been waiting all year to do this. and we want our car-ride!! its good to have you guys in my life, doing the silliest things together and embarrassing ourselves for the whole world to see and not caring a bit. i love you lots!
heres what i got up to at home today when i got bored and felt like talking to someone. 1. i invented some freaking cool operatic and dramatic song dedicated to the great culinary love of my life, stuffed portobello mushrooms. haha....and im supposed to sing it for christin on thursday but i don tenk its possible cos the only place i can get into that kinda mood is at home. i love it when i start getting so high and irritating the hell outta my mum who doesnt know whether to laugh or kick me out of the kitchen. but in the end, we all cant stop laughing. 2. went to ntuc with my mum and yunyi and my heart got stolen along the way by a toddler malay boy! gosh. if only i had my cam with me. he smiled at me at the playground so i waved to him and played with him awhile. and guess what, when we went off, he came running after us! omg. i was so scared his papa tenk im a kidnapper! the kid took my hand and so i brought him back to the dad. ah!!!! hes such a beautiful boy! (: disclaimer. im no paedophile lahh. stop saying i am all youall. 3. scared my mum's students with my psychotic laughter. well its all yunyis fault. thanks to her atrocious and ridiculous homemade videos taken of her and her friends in school. i tell you, kids nowadays do all kinds of mad stuff. like pretending to be airheads, nerds, impersonating themselves, running down slopes like madwomen, going gaga over stuff they have on their tables, and whatnots. well it was great entertainment for me girl. muacksss!
okie dokes. thats all folks. and i had a great day practicing man. so it was a good day after all (: i love you guys!
u know how people in the circle sometimes enjoy shooting pianists by saying how we cannot keep time, cannot play in time, are freaking irresponsible and always end up playing fellow musicians out? well. whatever the truth is. the tables have been turned and im pissed off. as of 11am today. and thats so not a good start to a monday morning. pissed to a state whereby i can feel the tears coming out. be professional. but thats so hard sometimes. i gotta swallow back hard, breathe deep. and it would help if you're awake to listen to the rants now. sometimes it just takes away all that joy in making music. when uve got to deal with such crap like the attitude and moolah. i might be crazy at all times and on a high. but i know myself well enough that when it comes to work, i make damn sure that i do deliver. thats the least one should do aint it. and i would expect the other party to make the effort to do the same. but sadly, thats not the case always.
im blabbling away i tenk. im just pretty upset now. its spoiled the day for now. maybe what i typed doesnt make any sense. but wth.