flowering plant in the Northern Hemisphere
with a globe of fine filaments
children (and the wind) love to blow away...
Click on the butterflies around the dandelions to get around.
Fire your imagination, Dream in colour
a boring old hag who loves to scream her head off, mutter in gibberish, and talk to random people on the streets.
Beautiful music. Gorgeous food. the Sun.Sea.Sand. Butterflies. Dance. Movies.
Spontaneity. Laughter. Love. Courage.
The Weird, Beautiful, and Unique.
The stuff dreams are made of
the Mini Austin!
the entire collection at HMV
my spanish chef (: im gonna marry him!
more of Desigual and Koi Nobori!
the yakpak hobo bag!
A Lifetime of Musicmaking with Inspiring People
and to share this with the world
Wednesday, September 28, 2005
just got back from the airport. sent cumarran off. already missing him. the msgs, the dinners, shopping, talking to him, the laughter, the 'longwinded' stories, the times spent with huili alene 04s27. time flies eh. there were so many other stuff we wanted to do but din have a chance to. at the airport i couldnt cry. watching him walk off to check in, waving goodbye. just so damn sad. but now the tears are attackng aft reading his mail. weird lahh.
but yea, im happy hes off to pursue his dream. lets hope he does real well and is happy there.
take good care, my dear friend. you've been a great buddy n fellow monster.
Good night my angel time to close your eyes And save these questions for another day I think I know what you've been asking me I think you know what I've been trying to say
I promised I would never leave you And you should always know No matter where you go, no matter where you are I never will be far away.
And like a boat out on the ocean I'm rocking you to sleep The water's dark and deep, inside this ancient heart You'll always be a part of me.
Someday your child may cry and if you sing this lullabye Then in your heart, there will always be a part of me Someday we'll all be gone but lullabys go on and on They never die, that's how you and I will be.
-Lullabye by Billy Joel
thanx mingwei for the lyrics. i love this song its damn touching. makes me tear.
the new music ensemble. 19th sept2005. yms. 7.30pm. :) steven stucky. brian egan. very-aunty-ing. wire brushes. trying to reach the insides of the piano with my incrediblyshort legs and arms. lotsof brain-juice-draining, mind boggling practices. counting weird rhythms. my first ensemble playing in nafa. alan. daniel. kevin. desmond. trying to control my stupid laughter backstage. totally hyperventilating cos of 2 crazyguys. eating bananas. doing banana dance. americ's beautiful '2 lovesongs' and damn cool 'tak boleh'. mr goh's rasa sayang variations. kitty's childhood fantasy suite. kopitiam.venezia. louis's car ride. yiwei. clare. renee. super drama-mama lightings.
yupp. it was a great experience playing for this concert. am very honoured to be asked to play for it. i learnt alot of stuff, learning the pieces, working in a trio, counting, playing different kinda styles and moods. thank you, mr goh. and thank you, mrs phua. and i enjoyed working tog with the four guys :)
thank you, my dearest mum, ideabank and wenhua for coming to watch too. im so touched! glad you guys enjoyed it :)
i used to believe in many things. i used to believe easily in what people tell me, in what i see. sometimes they called me gullible and they called me innocent. but now? now i cant find it in me anymore to believe. its getting hard to do that. 100percent belief. cos i dunno what and who to believe anymore. its not that easy after all.
why isnt everything as it seems to be? why are there so many layers to a seemingly simple thing? why cant every thing be trusted easily?
thank you dah101 for the phone call on thurs. im glad i asked you some stuff and like i finally know what happened. i got damn scared too :( you know why. whatever happens, i'll always be here for you. same. just a phone call or msg or scream away. tho you dun normally scream. but yeah. always. 24 hours a day. 365 days a year. and thank you for keeping e promise and carrying it out on fri morn. and thank you. thank you for being my dearest dahling fren. loves. please get well very soon.
lifes short, peeps. theres too many things you need to do but you will never get ard to doing. thats a harsh fact. cherish the people ard you, cherish the time youve been given on this earth. and live your every day to its fullest. and stay happy. stay healthy. its very important okay!! im learning that i really must do all these. if not i'll just look back one day and regret.
i just wanna say a very big sorry to my dear friends in school for all my outbursts, vents of frustrations and mood swings. sorry if ive at some point or points in time been horribly mean to you or very rude. i just realized ive been doing this quite frequently..arghs. i feel so horrible now. so guilty. and so very sorry!! it was never intentional. so forgive me please. thank you... control control control!!! i must control myself more. control my yucky temper. if not. i'll become an even more horrible person than i alr am now. quite loser rite. so. i must put in more effort. like 100% more. and.. sorry sorry once more.
thank you jeremy and clarence. im very glad to have you two as my frens. :)thank you for whatyouve done for me and said to me. it was very honest but i needed that. thank you jovan aka arrdobx. ali. nuz. maggie. for all ur concern and being here for me. i really appreciate it lots. thank you alan for cheering me up with ur madness. and yiwei, im really glad that we're talking again. :) it totally absolutely rocks. :)
i realized that it does not take much at all to affect me greatly.. like how a tiny action can change my mood so fast. an sms, a look, a carelessly spoken word, an ignore, or just sth i happend to hear.
and i tenk its getting too much. its not good at all. i need to be less sensitive, be more thick skinned. or just go numb at everything. cos i hate it. i hate being happy one moment n sad the next. angry the next and pissed with myself. then going excited. i feel like a silly idiot that way. and i tenk im hurting ppl unconsciously.
anw. Happy Birthday to Eileen Yeo Yi Leng :) u rock my world upside down, girl!! and i hope you'll be happy always. thanx once again for being the best ideabank partner i could ever have. and for being a sister, best buddy, insulting outlet and ideabanker all combined in one.
i went online and talked to my vogue partner, mr vogue. thanx for sharing with me pardner. u take care alrites.. next time, it'll be my turn to tell you my secret stories!! haha. liddat fair fair mahh. rite. :) anw. he never fails to make me laugh until my belly hurts and i cant stop. he never fails to entertain me when im getting bored or fed up. hes the worlds no 1 human metronome. hes my super powerful soloist, the one i enjoy working with the most! hes always on the look out to 'try' ppls food. hes my sibelius self appointed tutor. and the diva in a making. not to mention the orch diva. he is alan kartik! the crazyattapchee :) thanx pardner.
taken during a platform..black and white. woohoos! :) theres the mr hindemith lover: sebas. then papa weiping aka mr ng. me. the dah101. then uncle benny my shen soloist who will sweep u off the floor with his playing. and songyang acting cool :) hohos.
went for the musart dinner yest. before that felt really apprehensive abt it. i havent gone for prac for ages and not to wmc with them n blah.. just scared that it would be weird? but well im really glad i went. everyones become closer i feel. after wmc. made me feel kinda sad too in a way. cos i missed out on that wonderful bonding experience that they all share. n watching them, i really wished i din make that decision in the first place. but wells its done. so watever. it was a hard choice. thats all i would say. was good to see them all. my band mates. especiallyqiheng aka alibaba and tim and poonie. the three of them made prac in musart really fun for me. like..having 3 really nice older bros :)then theres joanne my darling junior and eejin my darling senior and xiaowan and james and adrian and jennifer and ermm..the eupho girl hee. and yixuan( correct spelling?)who can sing absolutely well and ruth and of course, mr and mrs chua. i was really happie to see mrs chua!!
i dunno why im such a lousy daughter but im sorry i am such so. i dunno how to be a good one. i dunno why im so rude and so rebellious. its just one of those weeks. i just cant help it. but i do regret it. and i wish i was the perfect daughter for you. i dunno how to do everything rite so u wont scold me. i really dunno.
i dunno why things turn out the way they do. i dunno why we drift apart. i dunno why i tenk the way i do. i dunno why im always so busy. i dunno why somehow i never end up doing the right things to keep a friendship going. i m always losing ppl. i wish i knew. can u tell me how. is there a dummies guide somewhere. i need one.actually i tenk theres sth seriously wrong with me. horribly and atrociously disgustingly wrong. its all my FAULT!! :(
yays! i am the best. i am the best ideabank partner in the world. but of course. i provide the service, provide the oven, provide the electricity, provide the brains, provide the hand, provide the utensils n everythingS!! yays. so i am the best ideabank partner in the world.
but then again, there cant be another ideabank alliance somewhere in this world. there will never be. cuz we, are the ideabanks forever! yays.
im high. cuz we are at my house baking cookies! n blueberry muffins! yum yums. love it mans. hahas. if u are reading this n u cant smell it n cant eat it, dun be jealous. just make orders from the ideabank! we will gladly sell u some! (: whoopeedooopeeedooo.
im just gonna say that i have a crazy partner who think she is v.o.g.u.e. she's not!! hahas. i dun care anywyas. im the girl! it's all a matter of perception. wahahas. but i love the owner of this blog! yay yay! im the best then she can be 2nd best. hahaha. take care girl! i love you loads loads loads loads loads! thanks for all the advice, all the times u were there for me, all the times u listen to my rantings n my hyperventilations, all the times we will have together in our secret homestay program, all the times we will have in our secret projects, all the times we will have in my house n ur house! all the times u were just there cuz u are my favourite ideabank! -muacKs-
love, your favourite ideabank too. (i dun care) eileen! (: