Dandelions are little miracles...

a boring old hag who loves to scream her head off, mutter in gibberish, and talk to random people on the streets. 140786

Beautiful music. Gorgeous food. the Sun.Sea.Sand. Butterflies. Dance. Movies.
Spontaneity. Laughter. Love. Courage.
The Weird, Beautiful, and Unique.

the Mini Austin!
the entire collection at HMV
my spanish chef (: im gonna marry him!
zonk time!
more of Desigual and Koi Nobori!
the yakpak hobo bag!
A Lifetime of Musicmaking with Inspiring People
and to share this with the world

Saturday, February 24, 2007

im sick of this. helping people is meant to be something that is joyful. but you make it a living hell for me. have u ever thought of a fact that i have a life of my own too? and in retrospect, have i ever thought of living more for myself? its partly brought abt by myself i guess. i never know how to say no. i always felt that was selfish. and its sad that im tenking this way now. but now. i want out. i want to be able to sleep at a time before 1am. i wanna do things because i want to. can someone teach me how to say no? why do you have some idea that i am here to be at ur beck and call? im not. if u are stressed, so am i. why dont u open ur eyes and look around u. everyone is just as busy and suffering and stressed and ure not the only one and that is enough reason that u don have any license to throw ur temper around when u want, raise ur voice if u feel like it. the world is full of selfish people. and it irks me so. ive been scaring my mum recently. bysobbinmyselftosleep. and its scaring me. sobbing like the end of the world has arrived when it hasnt isnt good. but im near to the point of breaking down. im losing it i tenk. and im finding it increasingly harder to control my emotions. any moment in time, any carelessly spoken word or look or gesture is enough to turn the leaking tap on. but im glad to have a mum like you, dearest mum. ure happeningly cool, tho sometimes u irritate me like mad (its retribution for me right). and thankyou for loving me so much. in so many ways. and being so psychic abt me. the way you just know things even my deepest secrets even tho i don tell you, its scarrry. but yes, thankyou for being here for me always.

ive been having tons of interesting and engaging conversations with phoenix recently. hehe. thanks dude. more pls. (: i enjoyed myself man. even tho we almost ended up having a war! haha.

i watched The Woodsman today. found it at home, i nv watched it tho i bot the dvd damn long ago. and its really good. its haunting. the way the issue of a lost soul trying to regain his place in society is dealt with amazingly. u see that normalcy is redefined for him. u see the many layers to a person and how society often fails to see that. how we always stereotype.
"the world tends to notice the bird with the brightest plumage. but that doesnt mean those with feathers that are not as bright, are uglier." sth liddat. heh. i tenk thats so true.

chilipadi on 10:00 PM