a boring old hag who loves to scream her head off, mutter in gibberish, and talk to random people on the streets.
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Beautiful music. Gorgeous food. the Sun.Sea.Sand. Butterflies. Dance. Movies.
Spontaneity. Laughter. Love. Courage.
The Weird, Beautiful, and Unique.
the entire collection at HMV
my spanish chef (: im gonna marry him!
zonk time!
more of Desigual and Koi Nobori!
the yakpak hobo bag!
A Lifetime of Musicmaking with Inspiring People
and to share this with the world
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
單單只為自己活著，可能嗎？
知道你們的辛苦，意試到你們為我操的勞。
有了這意識，心裡不好受．一股無助而慚悔的茲菋，好無耐。
覺得自己好自私。
盡不了作女兒，孫女，姪女，姐姐，表姐的責任。
也算是什麼朋友啊。
所以還是要回家，要記得為何有机會念書。
要報達，要懂得感恩。
但時間流逝得那麼快。
一轉眼，一切都有可能改辯。
chilipadi on 1:13 AM
Monday, September 15, 2008
deep down, i am a creature of comfort.
there are always the certain few songs or tunes that take me by the hand to my safe haven, my little treasure trove of memories, tinged with the rose coloured shades of nostalgia. these belong to my inofficial collection of songs i hold close to my heart, songs that bring me back to different days or periods in my life, now sepia toned, glazed over with the ethereal quality of dreams. and they're all it takes for the heart to wring itself into a crooked smile. memories do that to us dont they? somehow, most of the time its never really a real true blue smile. its always tainted with the knowledge that its past, never ever gonna come back. but you know, that makes it all the very more beautiful and precious in that moment itself.
there are also the bunch of random foods i crave with the intensity of an addict, and all the more in times of insecurity, of pain, of sadness and yes, of joy. foods like bread, all fluffed up and oozing the sinfulness of butter. warmly toasted and piled with cheese. and then theres my bowl of yoghurt. somehow, this fermented bacterial filled thing, it soothes me, it brings me a sense of familiarity, it makes me feel ok and yes, that niggling little piece of jigsaw will fall soon into place.
and on a perfect day, i find inmeasurable and unexplainable joy indulging in the luxury of staying at home, wearing my primary school walkathon tee shirt and shorts, reading a book while lolling on the bed, daydreaming under the canopy of a grandfather tree, cloudwatching in companiable silence with a friend, lying on the grass on our backs, having a coffee, telepathing, and yes, generally just enjoying the world we are in.
chilipadi on 1:40 AM
Monday, September 08, 2008
i want to be a person with more patience, and more understanding for the people around me, and be less spikier a person.
i want to be focused on my priorities and not get distracted (by FOOD sigh and random nonsense)
thats all. (:
apart from that. im happy to be here. to be who i am and for all the experiences, memories and chances ive ever had, shared, given and received in this life. happy to have the friends and family i have, even the random strangers. blessed to learn from the teachers i have. happy, overflowing with happiness to have all senses fully alive, to marvel at the amazing sky at sunset, to feel the world of emotions in music, to savour the taste of cheese, to breathe in the intoxicating sweetness of roses, to be comforted by another humans touch.
and so im happy, blessed and lucky. to be here. breathing and kicking. just to be alive.
chilipadi on 2:25 AM
