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Thursday, December 13, 2007
do you ever tenk abt growing old? ive never given much thought to it till today. and i guess, seeing the many elderly people around me, i was struck with a certain sense of terror. i dont wanna become one of those helpless little ladies that rely entirely on hired help to get around. neither do i wanna spend my retirement going in and out of hospitals, have tubes stuck into me and become a nuisance to my family and friends.
i would love to be an active granny still. and that of course includes the many activities fia and i have thought of doing. my granny friend (: i was talking abt this with mum and we both agreed, keeping yourself mentally, physically and psychologically fit and active is important. the dreams of early retirement and such might sound like heaven sent, but in truth and reality, are they really so? its what you do with these years i suppose. sometimes, the idea of pampered luxury is nicer than it actually happening.
i dread to think of my darling grandmas, grandaunts and etc becoming so. already it is happening. to people i hold so dear to my heart, people who took care of me and inspired me in my childhood. people who used to be so strong minded. they're slowly slowly slipping away. and it pains me to see them in such a helpless state. so u see, what you wish for might not be such a good idea after all.
had a good chat with zhirui online yest. what he says is true. everyone has different priorities in life. and its part and parcel of every relationship, be it friendship, family or such. when it happens that you do not have the same priorities anymore, its rather sad too. again its so subtle and nobody can actually place a finger on it, but its there. u know it. i know it.
sometimes i tenk im in too great a rush. sigh. i wanna do everything all at once. like snap snap go. haha. in a way im so greedy. greedy for life. to wanna live everyday to its fullest. but tahts not very good. i crave for days that i can spend at home, disturbing the mama, and stick the butt in the piano stool the whole day. such days provide a calming sense of peace, and self reflection which i ve grown to love. and to just work at the music. such a privilege.
and then again, i wanna do so much. i wanna practice, attend concerts, write music, listen to msuic, meet up with friends, family, grandaunts, shop, study german, learn dance, learn so many thousand things, go hiking, go swimming, go backpacking, eat, cook, design my cards, draw, paint, make stuff. blah blah. sigh.
chilipadi on 1:24 AM