Dandelions are little miracles...

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

HELLO WORLD, miss lazy here is back from yet another hiatus and i think angel huang meiyun is gonna kill me soon for not updating hahaha. so does mr. alan feel the same way. woots. but im back. and i was reading my past entries and i tenk i have lousy text. so small how to read! haha. shoots im so sorry. bt thanks for bothering to still come by to read abt my puny lil life.

so its been the most amazing three weeks in my life thus far. europe europe...i do love you. such a beautiful, magical place. and its scary how much can every happen within the span of three weeks. ive gotten to know so many many more new friends, visited places i only ever previously dared dream of. watched the most glorious concerts, eaten the most yummy food. everything felt totally surreal. experienced a multitude of emotions that at times threatened to overwhelm, learnt to express such feelings freely, sth im not so good at. and to people i just got to know at that. funny how one feels so much more when it seems that there is a time limit hanging overhead.

starting with spain. and the syc. (: the choir ive always been in awe of, always loved listening to, enjoyed the magic of their music. getting the msg from queenphoenix that historical day haha...was like a dream. finally getting to know the people in that choir was wonderful. and it was a privilege and joy to play for them. (: looking back i still am very touched somehow by it all. by how they welcomed me, a total stranger into their midst and yes i enjoyed every single moment of it all. looking thru pictures brings back memories, the funny and sad ones, the tears and hysterical laughter and quirky episodes. and i loved the singing. bunga sayang and teresica and e mana with the super cool dance moves n of course dear li bai. standing in the backstage alone the last concert and watching them sing brought tears to my eyes. as silly as it sounds. it was just very overwhelming. to make such special friends. and i remember the last nights of talks and sharing. the impromptu dancing on stage. the coool piano. nerea and maite the wonderful spanish girls who made a world of difference to our stay. the spanish people with their open hearts and arms. (: and learning basque! not to mention doing all sorts of nonsensical things.

london was a totally different world. a city nonetheless, i did not fall in love with it straightaway like i did with spain. or like how hilda fell in love with it. it took me a while to warm up to. discovering the quaint littl shops tucked in corners, discovering the oh so gorgeous parks.....gosh. i truly love the parks. they're like wham bang amazzzzzzing. prettytyyyy. and the museums that i can just live in. the galleries. and the concerts. the takacs quartet rocked the house with their awesome musicianship and spontaenity and really brought to life the music. i loved it madly. plus the michael clark dance company with their unique cheoreography of stravinsky's music. and one of the best parts was getting to meet new friends like simone, luis' italian housemate who made pizza from scratch including the base!! and his friend, matteo!!! multitalented drummer, photographer, and architecturist. and somehow he really reminded me of damon courtenay hehe. the norwegian girls, guro, ragnhild and marit. (: and of course, the great luis who cooked breakfast for me every single morning plus the smiley face bfast!!! i was really really touched man. it was really pampering man. haha. THANKYOU! and of course of course meeting cumarran there!!! wooooots. dude. it rocked. im so happy we met up (:

germany was just ...beautiful. everywhere. an ancient beauty that touched me beyond words and ridiculously made me tear. the buildings. the mountains. the little towns. the landscape. i really really loved it. the bavarian state opera and ballet was the best concert i watched in my entire trip. and at 4.50 euro at that. nothing can describe how i felt better than the fact that my silly grin never left my face once during the two hour performance. it was inspiring!!!! meeting gaston and jeremias, my argentinian roomates in munchen was really great. (: they're the two people with whom i experienced my first snow ever with. so amused they were with me too. and josef my innsbruck friend on the ICE train was hilarious. i thought i was disturbing him. but we had a great conversation in the end! plus the random camille whom i still donno whether i really understood him properly with my lousy deutsch. darrrnn. meeting sylvia and anastacia in freiburg after so many emails (: plus their fantastic teacher. hoho. i loved the lesson. (: (: (: ending the trip by visitng hilda in oestrich winkel made it perfect. it was so much fun in that little town and her pink cottage with dangerous tiny stairs. haha....getting to meet kelvin the great chef was cool too! thanks guys for making my stay great.

"I walk, without any other purpose except to walk. It brings inner peace. ..... Discovering the elementary, almost unlimited energy we have within us; the silence of walking alone. There's also time for observation and reflection." Sylvain Tesson. i read this line coming back from europe. and it embodied what i felt in london adn especially germany. spending so much time alone wandering abt and getting lost. taking in everything i heard, saw, smelt, felt. soaking in the essence of the country. the people .the language. the culture. I think i managed to do that.
this was sth i had been worried abt, being alone. but it din feel that bad at all. it was kinda just natural. and felt good. i felt alone, but never lonely. tho at times the stuff going on in my brain felt like i was gonna explode. but it was a period in which i think i came to terms with being comfortable with doing alot of things alone. finding my way around, eating, seeing things and so on. and it was a very different experience for me. u know how i like to talk alot and blah. so yeap. i enjoyed that, just walking. and its true. it brought inner peace and allowed me to think alot and reflect. especially in the schlossberg. just climbing. in that wilderness. it made me feel very calm, very peaceful, as if i had found a sanctuary sort of place. and i loved it.

does it all sound weird? i don really care if it does. its kinda hard to put into words how it felt. so pardon the bad explanation. (: i actually feel kinda american now haha cos ive been typing so much of the great, wonderful, and amazing. but ITS ALL TRUEEEE.

so its back to singapore now. the trip made me realize once again how lucky i am to have my mum. coming back i know i shocked her with my line of wanting to stay in europe. and yet she never said no. just said shes gonna have to mentally prepare for the day it comes. which touched me alot. but don worry mum i wont leave so soon. and huili and leen for their worries of my healthy organs being robbed and sending me updates regarding the traffic strikes and everything. im really really touched. (:

more next time. and pictures up soon hopefully. and after i finally keep true the promises i made to myself.
much love, everyone.

chilipadi on 2:43 AM
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