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Beautiful music. Gorgeous food. the Sun.Sea.Sand. Butterflies. Dance. Movies.
Spontaneity. Laughter. Love. Courage.
The Weird, Beautiful, and Unique.

the Mini Austin!
the entire collection at HMV
my spanish chef (: im gonna marry him!
zonk time!
more of Desigual and Koi Nobori!
the yakpak hobo bag!
A Lifetime of Musicmaking with Inspiring People
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Saturday, August 27, 2005

theres too much stuff running ard in my brain now. its like an overdose of everything.. i just wish that i could empty my brain of it all. maybe one of those pensieves that dumbledore uses would be of great help.. empty my mind and my heart of all these stuff so that i dun need to frown anymore dun need to cry anymore dun need to tenk of how to solve everytthing. i feel as if i have been pulled and stretched from every possible side. yet when i tenk thats the max i can take, somehow something manages to come by and stretch me even more. i tenk im gonna break soon.

my playing is going downhill. like totally. so is my accomp. i dun see any improvement in myself at all. and miss inefficient aka me takes like..10 years more than the rest of the ppl in my sch to finish assignments. and ttheres this and that and those. theres egan. stucky. ligeti. beethoven. mr richard. hindemith who im pondering how to deal diplomatically with cos its impossible i can do it properly. arghs. and theres liszt too. and saintseans.

i seriously dunno how did we end up like this. nothing ive done seems to help. in fact they only seem to have made it worse. maybe i shld try harder. if only i had magic and i knew whats going on in your mind. cos its like worse than being strangers. its like..losing an arm. the right arm. and i just wish that everything would go back to normal.

oh wells.

hmms. but to ideabank.. thanx alot for everything babe..thanx for the phone call thanx for the dinner thanx for being there for me. i had great time on wed.. having dinner with you two. hilarious ehh :) and im so so happie for you!! u deserve it! im looking forward to fri..woohoos!
to mr darlie. thanx alot too. i tenk i couldnt have gotten thru this week without all ur msgs. thanx for mon's dinner too. i had a great time. :) hope ur mouth is better now.. not so swollen. u take care oke..
lastly. to jeremy. thanx for thurs phone call and for being there yea.. same goes to ali n alma. haha. and yea i had a super fun time doing orch even with my lousy sibelius skills and discouragement from alan and jovan. hahaha. tskk.

and oh yea. tho this week was one of the worst i ever had, thank you for making it that much more bearable. for ur encouragment and funnies and making it so much better. for all the laughs. for giving me sth to look forward to.

chilipadi on 11:18 PM