Dandelions are little miracles...

Monday, May 30, 2005

woohhoo! thanx sis...my sis just taught the comp idiot me how to upload pics online to my blog :) haha... so here are the first ones... im still attempting to discover how i can archive pics.. wait and see.. comp idiot no more i am! and also...no more tech idiot! huimin! i have successfully recorded nicely my piano piece! hoho! so yeps...thats it for now...tatas ppl.. i need to sleep. need to find some interesting job. need to prac. need to do a thousand and one things. ;) ppl i owe a meet up with. pls call me :)

chilipadi on 11:32 PM
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bigg ppl attempting to squeeze under my tiny bed! gosh :)

chilipadi on 11:24 PM
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a zebra. a hippo. a lioness. and a giraffe!! all at my house! woohoo!!

chilipadi on 11:21 PM
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yumms..eating the qigirl and zhaoboy chocs.given to us from mum aka the lioness :)

chilipadi on 11:19 PM
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Sunday, May 29, 2005

whee! this'll be a long update.
at last the prac exams were over.. woah. tues was a mad day! accomp for nuz's then kevin's exam.. pageturned for yiwei's. then accomp for alan's exam. and after that...mine!!! hehe.. felt like my heart was beating super fast for 6 hours that entire day. went for jeremy's lesson aft that. then to sketches for tiramisu with him, nuz and yiwei. later on, swensons. then. kevins treat at pasta cafe. heh..thanx ya :) can u bliff it! i ate so much food in sucession at 3 places!!
wed..watched the jacket. everybody shld go watch it.
thurs. the outing of the weekk..thanx ppl for a wonderful time. :) wheeeee! we went to yiweis hse..which is now our permanent chalet..with the fabulous swing..lots of funny stuff done by the guys..like fei's aiming of my sandal rite at my head. and nuz's 'burglaring' of the hse. then to ecp.. for dinner...ate weibin's dad's famous satay beehoon and whole lot of other yummie food. had a superb time laughing at jovan's hokkien uncle style. took a stroll by the beach... sat there for long time.. talking..cloud gazing. the clouds there are really nice. very un-sg. listening to fei's singing. the whole time, it felt like we were on holiday.
sadly. fell sick on sat. heh. :( am i unlucky or what! yesterday, i thought i would have a heart attack or sth.
went to watch ideabank's st*uck performance!!! omg its super cool...u go girls.... it was fantastic.
then..the philadelphia orch and lang lang with christoph eschenbach. the orch is impressive. their winds..the strings... everything. and lang lang's playing...wow. esp his octaves.

yeps. thats the end of the update. ive got more to write.. but i dun really feel like writing those here. stuff like...how irritating and freaking biased and ridiculous a school can somehow get. due to certain teachers. i wish we could do sth abt it. stuff like.. how i wish certain ppl i nv met. but other than that.. im a happie girl. cheers. thanx peeps. i love you all. :)

chilipadi on 9:19 PM
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Sunday, May 22, 2005

contentment. yayys. after a long long week of practising, worrying, not being able to sleep well, and more worrying.. i had 45 mins today which gave me this blissful feeling.
contentedly, happily, peacefully, existing.
why? for me to know and u guys not to find out. hehe.. but, thank yOu.

its been a week of prac... everythings gonna end on tues!!! woohoo... i m so nervous..dammit! ays! nvm shall not type here lahh and bore u guys..
hmms... went for hilary hahn on friday... whoopeedoos.... firstly, her playing is heavenly. and exciting. and i like watching her play. her tone very nice. and shes so young! and then, i was damn high that day.. so yup! poor jeremy..hoho.. sorry for traumatising u with my nonsense. we had yummy dinner at ichiban!! i ate that heavenly tempura ice cream again!! yum yum yum. thanx for a great evening.
sat..my mum's student concert...yayys i saw my lil cutie pie.. me and ibp worked on our secret project somemore..
and today.. band outing. good to see them. victor, marcus, benson and seeann!

chilipadi on 10:42 PM
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Tuesday, May 17, 2005

hoho!!
im getting excited these days... ideabank project no. 1 is coming along beautifully...Yipppeee!! its da best secret project of the year! :) woohoo!
a secret outing coming along! im so excited i tenk i will hyperventilate soon
yays...life is beautiful. and exciting.
i got fia's pres today! its perrrrfect.
and i saw this really nice pouch... at raffles city. gosh. yumyum.
i wanna buy it...yays.. june faster come so i can get it.
im looking forward to tmr's dinner with fia so i can show her her present!
im looking forward to sunday..i can see all my band mates again... miss them hohoho
im looking forward to outings and outings!!! with huili n bears n lions ( gosh do i sound like a zoo keeper or what)

sigh. if only i could forget. if only in my perspective, things are oke btw us. then life would be even more beautiful.

yucks.

chilipadi on 10:09 PM
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Friday, May 13, 2005

yumm..i bot a damn nice bag today..its nice, its shapely, its err..pink, its prettie prettie, its elegant, its not to exx, and best of all, it fits alll my scores into it!! like...how cool is that!! :) it doesnt even looks like its big enuff..but like a doraemon..it can! the wonders :)
thanx ideabank! u rock. yeapp so she kinda discovered it..and instigated me to buy it.. yumm.. i not being sarcastic la
we took prettie neoprints too...woohoo...ask me to show u if u wanna see :) and then.talked alot of rubbish...ays! girl thanx for a wonderful day out.i had so much fun going mad with u the way we alwaes do...like..just losing our minds..in a way..and telling each other our probs..and insulting each other and everyone else. went to mast and got disturbed by silly mr aw...dammit. mr aw! dun spread that dumb story abt me and my name anymore!! so embarssing!! got tested by mr ngoh on my music history,wth! haha..whole lot of madness from these 2 ppl.. tsk. no wonder leen's like tat too. thanx mr aw for the ride home. hoho...them and pk were damn late for nie prac. pk! funkeh hair!
lastly..ms chings lesson! hoho.. it was in sch.. prac for the exam. stressed. bigger sound. freedom. deeper sound. yeaps. jiayou to myself.
quote of the day: its all a matter of perception!
[as drummed into us by my one and only ideabank pardner..come to tenk of it. shes true.][look at her! her head's swelling]

chilipadi on 10:25 PM
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Thursday, May 12, 2005

whee hee :) went to art museum yest with dah..was fun, fun and fun. they've got new exhibits dere..the asian art ones...some paintings are really nice.. like the one by the philippines artist.. forgot her name but yea....lotsa swirls of beautiful colours.and its really sad, or shld i say, it reflects something true abt our society. post the quote on the painting when dah sends it to me. or better still. go dere see for urself.
best of all...i got to buy my new pencil case!!! wooohoooohooo its very nice... black with white calligraphy on it...cool huh. i like. i like!!
heehee.... thanx dah. was nice just sitting dere quietly looking at hte artworks. not talking much.. but still talking... peaceful. and nice. hoho. cept for the horrid guard..."dun touch the works!" countless times. gosh. does he even appreciate the art himself? i wasnt even touching! just having a closer look..how else can i see some of the details. gosh....dun look down on us! this is the SINGAPORE art museum...as Singaporeans.. im sure i have as much right to come ALL I WANT to view these. dun stare at me so much. cos im still gonna come... and why would i wanna spoil them.. dun chase ppl away. how are u supp to cultivate ppl appreciate art in sg. when ure chasing em away.
eeks.

"sometimes when you just cant seem to sleep and you stare out at the pouring rain outside. The raging rain. Alone in the house. Every sound of the rain seems to accent your pain. Alone with the pain. You then realize sorrow exists due to the presence of memory. Memories. Sorrow."
quote that dah sent to me. i tnk its from ling. not sure tho.
sigh. how sad, but true. so very true.

chilipadi on 1:51 PM
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Tuesday, May 10, 2005

from Lewis Carroll's Alice Adventures in Wonderland:
"...but - There was a long pause. 'Is that all?' Alice timidly asked. 'That's all', said Humpty Dumpty. 'Goodbye'."

Goodbye.

is a bye ever good? in chinese, its called zai4 jian4. meaning, see u again. thats good, aint it?
to some ppl, after u say bye to them, u dun really wish to see them again. for some, u certainly do wish to. and for some, its a kinda contradiction..u want to. yet u shldnt. or cant. or rather not.
why doesnt anyone ever say: badbye? going back to that caroll's quote. i felt sadness reading that. so final. so...coldhearted. so very its -the -end..
black, white and grey. red, white and pink.
muddy patches in our world. they're the hardest to get thru.
somethings are better left unsaid. next time u'll understand why i dont wanna say.
sometimes i'd rather not talk. sometimes i'd rather shut myself up like a hermit.

hey peepos..im oke!! just some thots.. thanx dah and anonymous.
im just.............watever.. u noe, that funny watever action that mr goh does? yeps. do it now. thats right. and smile!! :)

chilipadi on 8:21 PM
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Monday, May 09, 2005

im sorry. im a loser. i screw up stuff.

chilipadi on 1:42 AM
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Friday, May 06, 2005

whoopeedoos! sheesh..i woke up late today and now i gotta rush my portfolio...how sad is that.. quite sad? hehe....bcos of portfolio...i cldnt do todays sentosa job..so its very sad now..blehs..
im feeling happier these past few days. after tue's horrible day. cant bliff i lost ctrl somehow. it was v scary.. pork and jovan, thanx alot for cheering me up, for appearing at the right time and for making things alrite again, somehow. so..yeps, they came and sensed my mood...and we went off. to esp roof terrace..gOsh. it is da beautiful...very beautiful. cant bliff we only went dere now! cos its very breathtaking. pork was trying hard to scare jovan by pretending to jump off. tsk. analysis and harmony exams are officially over!! whooo hooo...
thanx qin. :) offering to come over and all...and listening to my truckloads of nonsense.
thanx idp :) for everything! and sorry...cldnt make it yest for ur debut..but im booked by myself on 28 may...for uuuuuu haha.
supposed to go sakae sushi buffet-ing with lots of fun yest...but sadly we din..nvm..next week, guys.. then, we must take the long awaited neoprints :) yipppeee..
its just a nice feeeling. contentment maybe? that me, dah, jovan, and pork had a ridiculously fun time makaning at bk, watching vcd at library and makaning at kopitiam again.
tts all for now :)

chilipadi on 10:52 AM
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Monday, May 02, 2005

dunwannawaitanymorewhatsthepointofwaitingwheninoethatnothingisgonnahappeneverandimjustastupid
girlandimjuststupidlystupidlywaitingwaitingwaitingandhopinghopinghoping.hopingthatonedaymiraclesmite
reallyhappenandthatiwonteverhavetowaitanymoreinthislifeandthatiwillbehappythewayiwannabe

chilipadi on 11:02 PM
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Sunday, May 01, 2005

looking forward to helping huili with her darling's pres, meeting up with fia, naddie, shafa, mada. also, my idp.

what to do about all these nonsense thats happening in my life? how do i solve something thats so hard to solve? is there an undo button in life that i can press, and everything auto goes back to how they were, just a few weeks back, when it was a safe haven for me? i dunno how....i feel lost.

chilipadi on 3:42 PM
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