Dandelions are little miracles...

Monday, April 25, 2005

yoohoos so you might tenk wth am i doing on a monday morning at 7.55 in the morning sitting at the computer and doing such a silly thing as blogging!!! omg! i can hardly bliff it myself too! haha... oh wells..im doing aural! :) so guai hoh..but decided to take a break cos i rmb my horrible nightmare and decided to share part of it
you know how we alwaes dream about stuff that we tenk most abt..or harbour the most fears about..in general, things that are close to our mind , hearts.. yeaps. happened yest to me. very scary. dreamt abt a fren who changed so much that when me and fren b took train with fren a, fren a was scaring the hell out of me with the things fren a was doing...the way fren a was acting. woke up with a shock and wondered if it was just a dream.hoping wont come true

talked to shafa and naddie online yesterday..miss them and mada loads...sigh. 2 years of not seeing old frens. hope fia is doing well and adapting to nyp physio and that it'll be a right choice for her and papa seah will eventually give her his full support so that she can happily pursue her dream. so happie for her that shes at least started sch there! shafa's there too.. and hope that all my other frens get into the course they wanna go, or that whatever they are given, it turns out to be the best choice for them. blessings in disguise. so all the best dear friends :)

chilipadi on 7:55 AM
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Sunday, April 24, 2005

people change. people who used to make me laugh at every meal, train ride and schoolday. people who used to be big parts of my life. sharing each others joy and sorrow, creating beautiful moments, perfect pictures. people who i learnt to care alot for. and i really cherish them. alot.
things change. everything changes. sometimes it just takes a week. a day. the next time you see them, everything is gone. as if nothing special had ever happened. thats the scary part.
and what can you do then? you cant go up to them and tell them theyve changed. and demand for them to revert back immediately. can you? so in the end. you can only mull over it and pray so hard from the bottom of your heart that things go back to what they were, that it wasnt just a damn dream.
why bother? cos i do. cos good friends are hard to come by. and when you do come by some. your only wish is to keep them close not just till you grad, but till forever.
change. it happens. just do. all around us. in people. in admins. in sch. the weather. the env. in yourself. its all part of life. its inevitable.
but yet. sometimes, when it does. i hate it. i hate it to the core.

chilipadi on 10:08 AM
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Saturday, April 16, 2005

freaking fed up with pple using me as backups or treating me like im very good to bully cos the only reason why i bother helping is cos they are my frens and are impt to me so i find it hard to reject pple but that doesnt give you reason to vent ur anger or irritation on me cos im not existing to clean up after you or be a lapdog. i may look like a kiddo but that doesnt mean you treat me with less respect. and dont treat me as plan b, as second best. and in a team pple are suppsed to work together and do their own parts.
(yiwei..if u read this im not talking abt u n ewazen oke! u dun do this to me dah)
thats all i have to say.

chilipadi on 8:02 PM
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Saturday, April 09, 2005

whooopeedoos! i went to sentosa today at like..7am for sand,sun, sea and lotsa fun and work! haha..tenk that cynthia and francis are really great pple..and its a fantastic job...to set up your own company doing this kinda stuff which is both fun and fulfilling. woohoo...next time me huili and leen are gonna do tat too!!
came back and slept for an hour..u noe, i havent slept properly in ages..and everyday im just gettin more and more tired. to the point where im doing stupid things and losing myself..like forgetting where my bag is...like not knowing wat im supposed to have on...cos im like...so blur now..im scared that im losing ctrl of myself esp in the trains..haix. this is the superwoman in training..
wells..you noe its just the circumstances. aint anyones fault. if i dun do what im doing, what will happen to my marks and the grp? jsut wish kan had put another person in the grp who could help out more. sigh. :(
met up with simin and huifang for dinner at fish and co. great dinner, great company. just wish my ears werent so lousy.. and sorry for looking so sad. nth really... i am happie to have had dinner with you guys today.. was wonderful :)

chilipadi on 12:00 AM
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Sunday, April 03, 2005

woohooohoo...went to watch beauty shop with nuz today. nice show. very funny =) so proud of myself.
hmms...trying to do my history project now..lately ive become more and more tired.. its scary. and i just feel very lethargic..arghs. hate this feeling. die die die. stressed. got alans platform coming up. how to play lightly..i must go prac more.. and history presentations too. stress more.
mum's shoulder ache like damn alot. arghs. very horrible to see her in this kinda pain. when you noe that you can actually make it better for her by helping her do some stuff..but u just end up doing ur work and forgetting to. dissapointing.
im so looking forward to my holis. SAVE ME!
miss the house reps. too bad cant go for the outing tmr. sighs.
anw. ideabank darling thanx for the dinner that day. was good as usual, to talk to you and hyperventilate tog...our fave past time!
saw my cute horn player tat day at ps when collecting sound of music scores with dah and fei. woohoo...too bad. hes well...shalala.
anw. lyd..yes yes i will org the pizza outing soon! haha..will tell you again! take care yea! and no need to tag the same thing FOUR times next time! =)

chilipadi on 3:04 AM
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